im curently 20w 6d, i new from the start it would be a repeat c section. last night i kept dreaming about being cut open and it has my nerves ratteled up. this will be my third section done my first was an emergency section, they did epidural didnt take did spinal block still felt everything they put the triangle pillow under my right side n it shifted my daught n the pain increased last thing i herd was they were putting me under then put on the oxygen mask i woke up hours later to what look like my husband holding 2 babies not really was just our daughter who is heathy happy 5 year old. my second went so much easier they wont let me do natural due to not laboring properly. went in epidural worked my husband was aloud back everything went fine. just a little nausus but they kept it down. both were bikini cuts this time will be up n down that scares me really badly especially the recovery part. i have a 5 yr old a 15 month old and fostering our niece who is 6 months old and my husband is taking two weeks off from work but after that its all me so very very nervous scared over m whelmed any one with encouraging words please need something to ease my mind i also have been batteling with depression and this isnt helping