So me and my s/o have been going through a tough time the last few months. He found out I was talking to an old friend and every since then the relationship has been horrible. We've had so many ups and downs. I've sincerely apologized for my actions and he told me he wants to work on getting us back to where we were but he has also told me he doesn't know when he will trust me again and it's going to take time for us to heal. Which I understand. It's been 5 months since he found out and to this day he still brings it up. . He still says he doesn't want a relationship with me yet. I never slept with the guy but I did engage in conversations. Idk what to do. Is it fair or shall I say am I being selfish for wanting to just move on and not wait around for him to gain that trust back? I truly love him but it's like when will you trust me when will things get better? I don't wanna push him into it but idk.