I'm crippled. I have a lot wrong with me. My fiance loves me, and I know he does, he takes care of me and makes time to talk to me even though it's hard (military) but I just feel like I'm not worth it. It's hard to deal with me, I feel like he deserves better. I'm good friends with his best friend, and I've expressed my feelings, and he gets upset that I think that way. I wish I was different. I wish I could take care of myself, I wish I could be independent. I feel like he could do a lot better than me, I feel like he deserves it. My disabilities make me feel inadequate in my life and relationship. Sorry for the rant, I just had to get it out.