I'm starting to hate my husband. Not because I actually hate him, but because I am incredibly jealous. I gave up smoking (I barely smoked 3 cigs a day if that), casual drinking, any meds I was taking besides Tylenol my entire pregnancy. Now I'm breast feeding and I still have to give up all this stuff. I know I can drink if I have milk already pumped but it's just another thing to worry about. Especially with a broken pump. I choose to not be on any anxiety meds while breastfeeding. Don't get me wrong, I would gladly give up all this stuff for my son. But it's like 2 years of my life (pregnancy and my 1yr breast feeding goal) aren't even really mine. Meanwhile, my husband can drink as he pleases, smokes while he's at work. He's also in the military and out in the field for a month. While I'm here being miserable, he tells me he's having a blast. Not that I want him miserable too.. it's just been so hard for me 😭