Bath to relax tonight. I just don’t know what else to do. I’m so emotional, All I want to do it cry.

My boyfriend and I have been TTC for 14 months now. I was 4 days late and was so excited it might actually be “my month” then I got my period this morning.

My mom recently found out we’re trying and saw I had tampons this morning (we work together doing daycare) then she says “you weren’t supposed to start” and it crushed me. I have people knowing we’re thing. I feel like not only is my body failing me, but also disappointing and failing others who expect me to get pregnant. She doesn’t know we’ve been trying for 14 months so I know she didn’t mean anything by it, but it just hurt.

I just want a baby.

I want to experience pregnancy

I want to give birth

I want to be up all night with a baby

I want to have days we’re I just hold my baby.

So many people around me have newborns or are pregnant and don’t even want their baby. All they do is complain and not take care of the baby/act like they are horrible. Then send them off so they can go out to drink every weekend.

I just don’t understand why I can’t get pregnant when I’m so prepared and ready to love a baby (along with so many other women).

My boyfriend don’t completely understand how I feel.

I just don’t know what to do anymore, I’m ready to give up. I need encouragement that my time will come. I just hope it is soon.❤️

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