I sit here and think am. I good enough to love my own child does my child father love us I cry so much I sleep with rendom men to make money to feed my self to buy my child stuff does my child dad even loves us at all he comes home and fuss and fight ended up in the hospital and still take him back sleep with dudes for money to help him I go days without eating to make sure he eats and he have beer cigarettes weed make sure his clothes clean new this new that I just want to feel loved and pretty I know there other girls out here who look batta then I do I wounder if my child going to ever know where daddy at why he not here. why he not here mommy not pretty enough for him I done bad things for him to support him he don't care if I get put out or have no place to go if I didn't do what daddy say he going to leave us he don't want you he don't want me ever girl out here is pretty mommy loves you I wish I can do more if I got to give you to someone else to take care of you it well hurt alot but mom is to upset to love you I'm sorry I wish I can give you more