Dear boyfriend,

This is the first time I’ve ever felt something real with anyone in my entire life. The day I met you, you struck my heart with your charm and the way you never cared what anyone thought of you. Right now I’m being treated the best I have ever been treated, you take me places, you always know what to say when I’m upset, you calm me down even when you’re miles away and only present in the whirlwind called my thoughts. I’m deeply in love with you and it scares the shit out of me. But I love it. I love the thrill of never knowing what’s next with you. The way you never fail to surprise me and make me laugh. What terrifies me is the fact that you’re older and just a year away from college. Where you could meet someone and fall in love with them and leave me behind watching out of addiction. But somehow I put my entire heart into not only your hands, but in your heart too. I trust you more than I trust my own father to keep me safe and never hurt me. God knows that will probably end up with me being destroyed. But I refuse to have it any other way. I wish you knew I notice all the little things you do. How you get red at almost everything that may embarrass you even the slightest bit. How you smile during every kiss goodbye. How your body twitches when you sleep like something is giving you electricity in your veins. Oh how I wish you knew.