My “ I knew it from the start“ story. Trust your gut. 😥

I found out August 28th that I am expecting.

I didn’t ever want another child mostly because of health risks.

I hadn’t been feeling very many symptoms but had my HCG levels checked multiple times to confirm it was a viable pregnancy.

I even got them done less than two weeks ago at 8 weeks and my levels were 177,000.

I’d been talking about horror stories I read of a woman miscarrying weeks before and her body just not realizing it yet..... everyone reassured me over and over I was just being paranoid.

Today I went in for my first ultrasound at “ 10 weeks” and within seconds the technician asked me if I’d had any bleeding.

I replied with a no and told her that was a very odd question to ask me.

Then her face said everything.

She made face after face after face.

Then she stopped and said “ I can’t show you anything or say anything but your doctor will contact you within a day or two with a diagnosis “ I’m like what ?? You just Fucking said it all.

Within seconds she asked me that question and I knew yet had to sit there with my pooch out while she made disapproving and disappointing faces and now I have to sit here pretending I know nothing waiting for a doctor to say exactly what I know.

I feel mostly angry and disgusted.

Angry I just had a feeling I knew what was coming and disgusted there’s his thing inside of my body and these hormones inside of my body that’s just a lie.

Just sitting in there torturing me and I just want it out. I want to move on from this and pretend it never happened.

Always trust your gut.