Breast feeding anxiety

I am not proud to admit this, but BFing makes me want to gag. I am committed to giving it a chance and hope that mother nature will help me get over my issues about it. I plan to suck it up and try for a minimum of a couple of weeks to see how i do. I have been watching videos trying to prepare re: a proper latch, holds, etc. But every time I think about an infant sucking my nipple and making those gulping sounds, it repulses me quite honestly.

Please, no comments about how it's natural, best thing for baby, etc. I know - god do I know! I am quite aware of all the benefits. I just dont know how to get over my boobs being used as a feeding mechanism (i know that is what they were built for). I dont know if I will ever be able to use them for sexual purposes ever again after BFing. I feel so guilty for having these thoughts. It really truly grosses me out though. Maybe I can exclusively pump if I cant handle it?

Anyone else experienced this? Did you get over it? how long? any tips? anyone not able to get over it?

Please dont say simply "it will all work out." I want real answers that others in my situation have had to deal with, you know?