The holidays are coming and I usually love them but my family is a mess this year. I mean, we’ve always been a mess but now I have a daughter and it’s just tough.

I have 4 siblings but only 2 live near me. The other 2 recently moved out of state and across the world. 😔 My moms been an addict for 25+ years so we’ve distanced ourselves from her but still spend holidays with her and birthdays.. now my 2 brothers have recently gotten into coke. I haven’t spoken to them in 3 months.

Now the holidays are coming but I’m not trying to bring my daughter into the environment of ANY of my family’s home. That would make ME a shitty parent. My mom usually puts a little something together but her house is roach infested and her bf is also an addict. I’m not throwing a huge turkey dinner at my apartment because my brothers and SO don’t get along anymore. We’re all just torn apart.

What am I supposed to tell them? I don’t want my daughter around y’all but I’m going to spend the holidays with my bfs family.

I just feel really alone and feel like I have nobody. No family, because drugs. 😔