Cant cum ?? And my mans doesn't like to go down on me

I cant cum neither from sex or touching myself when i touch myself i get to the point where i feel like im about to cum but nothing really happens i don't squirt nor does cum come out could there be something wrong with me ? When i watch porn i see females squirting and having orgasms I've never experienced either my mans he doesn't like to give oral its just not his thing he's tried for me a couple times but he says its just not for him which is a bummer for me because i like getting oral i give him head all the time i don't complain because i love doing it but i used to not do it i didn't like to but i started for him and ended up loving to give him head but sometimes i would like it in return 😩