I'm tired of my husband

I'm tired of my husband. I wish life never put us in the same path. Maybe I would be in another place right now and not here at home crying. I can't stand him anymore. He has been the best and the worst thing to ever come in my life. The only thing I am grateful for is that when I was at my lowest he helped me out and that im expecting a baby boy from him. but other than that what good can he bring me. He's not the person I met. He has abused me physically and mentally and just gets mad for every little thing. Every day I mostly dread him coming home from work because I know he will be mad. At me or because of work. I can't stand him. I've talked to him plenty of times a d the only thing hell do is ignore me or make it feel like it's all my fault. I wish I never met him.....