Dear FWB

I've been your friend for about 5 years now, so I know what you're doing. When we last hung out, you kept making jokes about me being in love with you. And I know that you're not just joking about it bc months ago one day you kept making jokes about me being attracted to you and then later that night you kissed me for the first time. I know that you're starting to get suspicious about my feelings for you, so I'm gonna come out with the truth.

Idk what my feelings are. I do know that Ive grown attached to you, especially since the night I gave you my virginity. But if I'm being honest, you've been acting different too. Remember after we had sex that one night we were cuddling, and you were saying the sweetest things? You said you loved that way I smelled, the way I felt, and you asked me to stay the weekend. And when I had to leave a few days later, you said that the weekend went by too fast and that you'd miss me and be thinking of me. I know I've said and done things that might've thrown you off, but you definitely have done so too.

Idk if I see us as a couple, but I don't want to stop what we're doing bc I know that everything will change. We won't talk nearly as much, we won't hang out, and to be honest it would probably hurt to think of you. This past year you've become my best friend, and I'm so grateful that I have you in my life. You've been the only thing that has kept me sane bc of work, school, my family issues, stress, etc. Like I said, I'm still trying to figure out how I feel, but for now, no more love jokes please lol. it kinda sucks that I cant tell you this in person, bc even though we'd both like to know where we stand, it would proabaly make things weird. But its ok. Im pretty happy with where we are now.

I'm excited to see you in a few days. -S