Negative attitude...

Riss
So last night I had a dream I took a test and it was positive! Needless to say I woke up optimistic but now it's the end of the day and I'm kinda bummed... I feel like AF is going to come and I'm just going to be disappointed again like I have the past 7-8 months. 😒
It's really almost impossible for me to change my negative attitude unless I get that positive and it sticks! 
I'm dying to know but trying not to go out and buy a test! AF is due on Wednesday... Praying she doesn't come🙏🏻
Can anyone else relate?