ugh! why

i really just need to vent. i have 2 children, 2 years and a 1 month old. my boyfriend works night shift so i not only get all night alone to tend to the kids, i get all day while he is sleeping. it has

really taken a toll on me. i am BEYOND exhausted. he thinks its fine because i dont have a "real job". well thats problem number one. number two, he has off most weekends and i STILL get up alone at nights. tonight he decide since we got into an argument that he was going to his buddys house. welp, hes still there. im really just at a loss and i feel so hurt bc he still does whatever he wants to do and gets a full night's (well days lol) sleep...