Just need to vent a little

J.

So I'm married. And 2 kids. We never really explored much with sex but lately we been trying new positions and what not and one thing my husband is into now is blow jobs. So thankfully he doesn't cum in my mouth idk if I want to experience that yet or at all but we never talked about if he wants to lol but I'm always hesitant to start so I have to talk myself into it when he wants it. I don't like the salty Precum but other than that I have no thoughts on it. Now, it makes me upset that he only goes down on me for a few seconds and just start having sex. When I give him one I do it to however far he wants it to go. But He says he's fine with doing it to me just hard to handle when I get to wet which apparently is instantly so 1 second no fun for me lol of course I'm not gonna make him do anything he doesn't want to. so I think I'm done going down on him if I can't get it in return ugh. Anyone else go through this to? 🙋🏼