I'm so sick and tired of every single month testing and testing and testing and constantly getting a negative result but for some reason I want to keep on taking another test a day later maybe it's the test so I try another day then a day later AF shows up so that I say okay well next month I have a feeling it's definitely going to happen, so then it's time to test again of course I start testing days before AF is even due and there's always that one test that I swear I see a faint line actually it has happened a few times where they're actually really is a faint line I even got a faint line on a early response pink dye test but for some odd reason it's actually not a positive just like yesterday I took 2 test 1 being a First Response pink dye test and even my sister says there is definitely a pink line it's very faint but it is there then I take a blue dye test and sure enough there is a faint line that line didn't show up for 10 minutes but it did show up so now I have to test that have very faint lines but visible I post the test on here and everybody for the most part says you're pregnant just like the last time this happened then I take a test today which should be darker there's absolutely no line at all so what is going on I don't understand I'm so sick of the disappointment I don't know if I actually am pregnant or I'm just being hopeful I don't know what's going on but this is the second time on a pink dye early response test I have gotten a very faint line but a line that is still visible and people are saying congratulations and then I end up with my period all though my period still has not shown up I feel at this point hopeless because the test today was definitely negative I'm feeling depressed and I'm so tired of this I feel bad because I do already have two children ( with an ex, my husband has no children)and there's so many people who probably hate me right now because they are trying to conceive just one child and I am very sorry that you are going through that but I've always wanted four kids my entire life basically, I have 3 siblings so I'm obviously one of four and I've always wanted my kids to grow up with three siblings as well. my youngest is going on 5 and I really don't want her to be so much older than her younger siblings that she doesn't want anything to do with them,or that it feels like I just completely started over I'm sorry if it offends anybody that I'm complaining when I already have children but I'm sure there's some people out there that understand me and know what it's like to have secondary infertility it's so frustrating and once again I apologize to anybody who was trying for their first and it's not happening my heart is with you. Here is my tests from yesterday, and today there is NO faint line at all... nothing. also I know my grammar is terrible I'm using talk to text. let me clarify these are all the 2 tests from yesterday that got my hopes up, I didn't post today's test because there is no point there is nothing there to see...