I just heard that my sister in law is pregnant and it kills me. I am really trying to be happy for her, really. But all I can do is cry right now. I know I shouldn't. I just can't help myself. I don't want to be rude or mean but I just don't understand!!! She was not even trying!!! It's been only two months since she has a boyfriend so why the hell is SHE having a baby?!?!?? I'm sorry, I know it's just jealousy talking but I need to get this out of my chest. I got no one else to talk to about this. How do I live with that now that I'm gonna have her baby belly in my face very often? Or hear her talking about it? And my boyfriend.... Not supportive at all in this. He's so happy for his sister and he doesn't understand me at all. He asked me why I was crying. REALLY? He's telling me I should stop worrying and thinking about getting pregnant because it will happen when we least expect it. He's right. But it's harder than it seems to stop thinking about the thing you desire the most. He's just never gonna understand how I'm feeling because men and women don't feel this situation the same way.