On October 25th I will be having my 20 week appointment and to be honest I am scared out of my mind and on an emotional roller coaster. We find out just three days before the anniversary of losing our baby girl. Lily Caputo was 24 weeks along when we lost her October 28, 2016. I am blessed that we are having our rainbow baby, but in the same sense it’s kind of hard right now to fully enjoy this pregnancy. My doctor told me that it is totally acceptable to feel that way after what has happened this past year. He wants to sit in during my ultra sound with me and my husband. When he found out that I was pregnant again, he cried along side me and my husband.