Oh what a difference a week makes when you’re pregnant. Last week, at 6.5 weeks, we had an ultrasound, saw the heartbeat, and were on cloud 9. This week, my bloat is gone, my boobs feel normal, my food aversions are gone, and I feel like I felt just one short month ago before I was pregnant. All symptoms are gone. No cramping or spotting, but I suspect it’s only a matter of time. This is giving me deja vu of my 1st miscarriage last year.

So, I’m preparing myself for the worst. I made the mistake of sharing my suspicions of a miscarriage with my husband and he was devastated and slightly annoyed by my pessimism. He says we should worry when the doctor tells us to, but otherwise behave as if things are progressing as normal. He’s right, but it’s hard when it’s your body going through the unwelcome change back to normalcy. I have an 8week ultrasound scheduled for next week, so 5 more days to confirm or deny my fear.

Anyway, the first miscarriage wasn’t too hard for me to recover from emotionally. I felt as if one miscarriage, especially a first pregnancy, is common. So getting back into the mindset of trying to conceive again was not hard. The fact that it took a year was hard, but getting over the 1st miscarriage wasn’t too hard.

But this one...I am going to be devastated, and I don’t know how I’ll be with trying to conceive knowing I’m part of that very small percentage of women who’ve miscarried twice in a row. I’m 38 so time is not on my side. I just hope to gain strength and perseverance from many on here!