I am becoming bitter

I am becoming bitter. I don’t have anywhere else to really write this, to put it on Facebook wouldnt be smart, Everyone I work with would see it and since I am a nurse that would be a bad idea.

I realized, today, that although I have what most would deem “success”, I feel lost and alone and empty. And in my self loss, I am bitter. I constantly check up on other’s facebooks and Snapchats, and at 21 years of age, I find myself judging them for drinking or having children. Who am I to think that way? But somehow, those thoughts enter my mind. It hurt me, realizing this today, as I have never wanted to be someone who could be described as “judgmental”, in fact in prior years I prided myself on being a good listener, and sort of counseling my friends. So how did I go from that to judging people on Facebook? How did I become so bitter? I’m not cool, I’m not nice, and I’m not pretty! I’m a piece of shit! And the only 2 people that care about me, I’ve been pushing away. I just need to talk myself through where all this went wrong.

Please share your thoughts. I need a different point of view.