5 weeks today


After 3 early losses am 5 weeks pregnant today. This is the furthest I’ve got and so I’m hoping this is the one. I don’t want to tell anyone in “real life” until I get to 12 weeks. Part of me so happy but part terrified that it will go wrong. The others were very early and so every day I breathe a little easier (after checking my pants every 3 seconds) but if I get another week, two, three down the road and beanie doesn’t stick it will be so much harder. Would like some friends due in June to share things with. Carrying on in silence is so hard. I just want to know it will be okay so I can be happy!