okay so, i guess ill start from the beginning.. when mr raylan was born the very first day i had him i had felt a lump in his neck. it was a soft lymph node. every doctor told me and my husband not to worry. they can stay soft forever. but there is a possibility it can get hard so keep an eye on it.

i still worried like crazy! a few months pass to me it felt like it was getting harder, took him to the doctor and she still said its okay, keep an eye on it dont worry

and im a mother, i am going to worry! but fast forward, about a month ago it became rock hard. but i could get an appointment until today. shes like WERE JUST GOING TO WAIT ANOTHER MONTH.. girl! ive been stressing for 7 months now youre going to make me wait another until you send me to a specialist?!

so i was like ok. he looks good, his personality hasn't changed, its not bugging him until i touch it. ill try not to stress. but its so fucking hard! im the type of person to think the worst and i know thats so bad. but i can not help it. i dont want my baby in pain, i dont want this to be bad news but i have a month to think! im just hoping for the best and hope it softens back up. i love my boy too much to see him in pain

mr raylan jacob💙💙