Emotions

I don’t know how to feel right now. We were supposed to have sex tonight and it took our son forever to fall asleep. But my hubby asked me if I took a ovulation test and I said no I start that Monday he said ok. He was messing around with me and then my son decided to get up and need some water (my son is 9 BTW) and so my hubby got up to handle it. But he came back into the room and seemed very uninterested in sex and more interested in watching videos on his phone. Like a light switch turned off. He said I want to make sure he is asleep... UNDERSTANDABLE!!! so I lay here awake and waiting and my husband is now asleep. It’s been 4 years trying now..... it always seems like his phone is more interesting. He says he really wants a baby but he isn’t acting like it. And I really want another one..... I am getting tired of people asking us about number 2.... and my sister had a baby recently and I have a picture of me and my son and the baby and my mom comments “that baby sure looks good on you!” And she knows my struggle on this whole thing, she knows how badly We want one..... like is that necessary to say??? I guess what I am trying to figure out is if I should just stop trying???? I’m tired of being turned down and put second to a phone. Sorry for the long post I’m just full of mixed emotions right now and I don’t know if I even have a right to be this way or if it’s okay to be this way.