How to deal (read)

Kylie

I’ve been with my boyfriend for 4 months. He’s a person who hardly shows any emotion. So he’s hard to read. He’s not touchy all the time. Don’t get me wrong. We have our moments. But he’s not flashy about us. Which I mean is fine. I guess I’m content with either way it could go. But anyways. He has a friend group that’s been friends for years. Some girls and some guys. Well my SOs bestfriend has a girlfriend and her and I are okay friends now. I mean I probably wouldn’t tell her my deep dark secrets or anything. But she’s fun to be around. Anyways. *joel* (well name my so Joel) Joel has a friend and they’ve been bestfriend for 10+ years and his friends Dad died last week and Joel and his dad were super close. Basically a second Dad. Well the funeral was yesterday and everyone had a party at the guy who passed away a house for a one last time get together. Cool right. Ok. Well Joel and I drive down there (2-3 blocks away) Joel tells me as we pull up that his ex might stay the night at his house on the couch and I’m thinking what the fuck. Not only did I not know she was here .... I didn’t know we invited our ex’s over. Idc if you’re drunk and have no where to go. They make grass for a reason. Don’t drink if you don’t have a safe way home or a place to go. (Ex’s houses don’t count if they have a girlfriend) so anyways as soon as we walk in I’m already like idek who this girl is. But I don’t want to talk to her. I want to see how her and Joel interact. But Joel Maybe talked to me 10 times the whole night. He kissed me and made me a drink and made a few comments about how I’m being weird and I need to get up and go talk to people instead of being antisocial and on my phone. I was like ya ok lemme just get right on that Joel. And I basically stayed on my ass in the chair not talking to anyone. A couple people talked to me but that’s about it. Well then I walked outside to see just Joel and his ex sitting there maybe a foot away from each other and I ask Joel if his house is unlocked and he said yes and I said bye I’m going back to your house. And he said oh alright then in a shitty manner. Next thing I know maybe an hour later Joel and his ex walk in his house he walks into the bedroom and gets her a blanket and she’s currently asleep on the couch. Like I mean I just felt very uncomfortable all night long. I feel uncomfortable right now. I mean honestly if I had the balls I’d just go home but I’m not that ballsy and I kinda want him to bring up last night and my attitude so I can let him know you don’t bring your ex around your girlfriend. Like I don’t want to get to know her or be her friend or see her or hear her name. I’m not jealous. I’m not worried. I mean maybe I’m worried a little because everyone of my ex’s have cheated on me and I’ve been pregnant (miscarried) and engaged and they all did it to me. So Joel of 4 months could easily do it too. I don’t think he would by any means. But it’s just a respect thing more then anything.