okay so this is gonna be a crazy story so bare with me! I’m currently 17 and a senior in high school.

last year as a junior I started talking to a senior, it just started as a fwb things. as time went on he started catching feelings for me and vise versa (we’ll call him kevin) but he was going to college 6 hours away so we decided we weren’t going to put pressure on what we had. I lost my virginity to him and he’s the only guy I’ve had sex with. he moved away and we still talk occasionally

my friends first started having sex when we were 14ish-15 and they talked about being attached to their first and ever since then I told myself I wouldn’t put pressure on my first time, it was gonna happen when it happened, and I told myself that I wouldn’t get attached unless it was something serious

since losing my virginity I’ve done other things with different guys but when we get to the point of almost having sex I back out and decide that I don’t want to. but recently kevin came back last weekend and we ended up having sex.

do you think i’m emotionally attached to kevin? or am I way too in my head? I don’t have feelings for him as of right now, but idk I just feel like since I was so vulnerable with him maybe that’s why I can only have sex with him?

please comment your thoughts!! i’d love to talk to other people besides my friends who have bias opinions:)