So I had an unexpected c section when I was 41+3 on July 23rd. My body stopped going into labor. I had to be put to sleep because as they were trying to do the c-section I wasn’t getting numb. overall it was pretty traumatizing and painful experience. I’m so sad I didn’t get to deliver naturally as it was what I was anticipating the most about being a mother. I wanted to see my boyfriends face when he saw his son for the first time. I wanted to be able to hold my son for the first time and rub his back. I wanted a picture of him as soon as he was born. Ugh. I think about this everyday and my son is 3 months. 😢 I love my son to death, but I always wonder if I’d have a closer bond if I delivered him naturally. Does anybody share something similar with me? I feel so alone.