My SO and I went to the store last night and he got a Prego test and I'm telling him I want to know but I'm so afraid that'll it'll be negative and it'll bum me out. I swear everyone around me is popping up pregnant with out even trying and I've been trying for almost 3 months. I just deleted FB and FB Messenger because I just don't want to see it. when the hell will it be my turn? I'm about to be 32 next week and I want nothing more than to be Prego on my birthday.

SIDE NOTE: This is the most important birthday because I lost my mother when she was 32 and I'm named after her and I look just like her. I think maybe I want this pregnancy for me and her. I know she's not gonna be here for any of it.