Hit a solid low point

Hey everyone, I truly have no reason to complain and for that I'm sorry.

I think I've hit an emotional break...

Ive realized today that I'm scared out of my mind...

I want to be a mom yes, and Gods granted me the most amazing husband.

But I don't feel ready for this... I just realized today that we are now married a whole five months..

I'm 11 weeks pregnant..

And i have no clue what to do with our life. Bills need payed. I can't seem to do anything right. I can't even cook a meal for my husband.. Or do his laundry.. Let alone get house work done with how much I keep getting sick..

I miss my sisters.. There doesn't seem to be anything I can do right with his imidiant family.. I'm surrounded by amazing people of his family but feel so alone..

I don't want to invite people over because they will see how much I'm failing.. I can hardly keep hours at work.. And when I do get them I'm to sick to stay..

I know there must be more to this this hormones but seriously??

I use to feel good about who I was as a person.. Now I feel lost. Home sick for something but I'm not sure what.. And my sweet husband is trying so hard... I feel like all I do is let him down....can someone just tell me to grow up? Or this is normal?

My mother Inlaw sounds like freaking Wonder Woman when it comes to having kids. She's had ten.. I think she's a pro. But i can't relate in any way.

When did I get so emotionally and physically weak...

Any other first time moms hitting a low?

Sorry again for the pity party plea.. I just feel so lost..