My marriage separation

Hello everyone this is my first time ever posting in Glow. I’m a mother of a beautiful little girl, a LPN for about 5 years and now attending school again for my RN/BSN. I’m 39 years old and I’m currently working as a clinical Liaison for a long term acute Care Hospital making great money. I’m a type of person I will love you for life and when I’m done with you trust me I will let you know. But in spite of my marriage I’ve been married for 8 years of crying, sadness, and unhappiness.

I’ve decided that I needed a change and with me dealing with my Husband’s addiction being in and out of rehabs I decided to change the situation. In the result of our marriage him and I physically fought constantly but during this time my daughter wasn’t even born or thought about. With me being a mom has changed my thought process in becoming more aware of how I handle my shit in life. Because our children are watching and listening to every thing that we do as parents. So I also came to realization I wasn’t happy for a long time in my marriage as well. I became more angry and disgusted with my husband and he became more loving. But I didn’t trust his intentions because it was like living with Dr Jackel and Mr Hyde. I started to get really bad anxiety in years of being on edge all of the time in what is he going to do next. But as the days went by I decided to let go and let God do what’s best for my daughter and I. I then told him I don’t want to be in this marriage anymore and I asked my husband to leave also he has until the end of November to move out. Trust me it took me years to tell him because every time we did separate he would flip out and would call me horrible things that I would ever thought someone who says they love you do. I really got tired of the mental and physical abuse from this man. Now the pages has turned and now he wants us to work out our marriage. I straight up told him no way I’m done and I’m ready to explore life without you and your madness. With me gaining my confidence and strength in making the most important decision for my daughter and I lives. I have gained so much happiness in the past couple of weeks and my husband can’t take how relieved I look. I really hope this helps someone because women need to understand we don’t have to take abuse just because we don’t want to be alone. I rather be alone than going through someone else’s madness. So this time around it’s going to be my daughter and I until God sends me the right person who will cherish my daughter and I. Be blessed and much love 😊❤️😇🙏🏾