Postpartum is the WORST!!!

I’m so bloody annoyed. Ever since my baby was 2 weeks old I’ve had problems going to the toilet (back end). When she was 9 weeks old it was so bad I went to the doctors, had an examination and the doctor told me she can’t feel anything (piles were there but healed) right enough I went to the toilet that day and no pain but It started up again a couple of days later, now my baby is 13 weeks and I’m still having verrry painful bowl movements and a toilet full of blood almost every time, I’ve had stool softener and suppositories given to me by doctor and the piles keep coming back 😭 I give up 😪😪