Stuck inbetween and need advice...

Daisy

get ready this is a longgggg story..... so my crush asked me out afew weeks ago and I said yes because he was my crush obvs.... my absolute best friend Annabelle had a boyfriend called Connor at the time and as I haven’t said the boy that asked me out was called Alfie. Whilst we were going out Annabelle and Alfie had a MASSIVE argument and fell out completely over a load of bull shit. I tried to keep out of it bc it isn’t really my business.... me and Alfie were so cute,we held hands,I had my first kiss with him and I felt like I could tell him anything❤️until one day I was hanging out with some of my friends and people started saying that I had a crush on another boy which wasn’t true bc I loved Alfie to bits💗it started getting worse and people were verbally abusing me until I walked off and got my dad to pick me up.whilst I was in the car on my way home he text me saying I think we are better off as friends😭I couldn’t argue with him bc it was his decision and I get that,it’s just that before we went out he had a crush on Annabelle and I was scared that if they broke up and we broke up that he was going to go strait for her....and guess what....a day passed and my friend Annabelle broke up with Connor... after afew hours I found out that Alfie has asked out belle,I was furious and hoped that she said no,but she didn’t. Every body was congratulating her whilst nobody gave a shit about me. She said she was sorry and I was ok with her and we are back to normal. I got a bit mad at him but we didn’t fall out. I know ppl are going to say that I shouldn’t trust her or him anymore because he pretty much used me to get her.today we went to a party and they were kissing and I was so upset I almost left crying.... I don’t know what to do and I need some advice to cheer me up. Thank you x