hi ladies. in May I went into labor 12 days past due and labor went smoothly and progressed naturally. I was 9cm when they couldn't detect her heartbeat anymore. I was rushed via ambulance to a hospital (I was at a birth center having a water birth) and had an emergency c section. I woke up to find she hadnt made it. it was unbelievably heartbreaking, especially knowing had I been in a hospital all along, my baby might be here. they said it likely was a "cord accident" but I declined the autopsy because I couldn't bear to hear it was my fault. I fell into a deep depression. fast forward to now. we are pregnant again. we weren't even trying. we were told to wait a year so now I'm freasked out if my body can grow another human properly and obviously also about something bad happening again full tern. do you think ill be considered high risk? I haven't seen a doctor yet. I'm 5 weeks. I don't even know who to call as I had midwives last time.