So there’s this girl

She lives in California and I just want her so but we always have this problem with her that just because I’m not in California she doesn’t take her having me seriously, like I rather have someone far away that I really want them someone close and I don’t want them. Nothing should hold you back from anything but we video chat and we text and call but just that urge to just get on a plane and leave has never been so strong. I would give her the world even though w head years of things being bad and her well leaving me because she just couldn’t handle the distance.

I guess deep down she like that secret never searched because she lives in California and I’m in New York City I DONT KNOW APART OF ME LOVES HER SO MUCH Outside of me getting annoyed when she goes MIA I still do love her when she comes back.

And she just got out of a situationship and I’m aware n I knew that it wasn’t going to last anyways but I’m not some rebound I told her so when she’s done lolligagging around you come back and talk to me. And i just got out of a situation too but then she just pops up and it’s like a beautiful thought just to know that I have her

Some people just don’t know what they have when they have it but she’s also this beautiful daydream 💭 I always think about when my mind wanders

What do you think am I crazy ?