just looking to vent a little bit. my SO and I have a great sex life. only down fall is the foreplay is always just about him. never me. he always gets a hand job or blow job to get hard and I get nothing unless I do it myself!! so I decided if I had to do it myself id get some toys and make it a little easier and now he's pissed. told me that's disrespectful and it tells him he's not good enough. tell me ladies?!?! am I really wrong here?