Homecoming day...it was the day of the dance and parade. My boyfriend and I planned to go and have fun. But after an argument in 6th period math class, after school he stopped me in the hallway and told me to the side, "(my name), we can't do this anymore. We fight too much and you just don't make me happy anymore. I'm sorry.." devastated, I went to the dance and the game, but when home early to cry my eyes out for the next few days.

After wanting some closure, I talked to him..I wanted a better explanation from him to end our two year, teenage, first love. He told me "you didn't make me happy. It was fake and now that we're not together, I'm genuinely happy and I found someone who makes me happy. I never want a relationship with you again.. I don't love you anymore." Of course after hearing this I went home and hated myself for days.. wondering what I did wrong and how I ruined everything. But the truth is, him and I weren't happy for a while, that part was true. And he had cheated on me twice before, which I should've left but that's another thing, he made me feel like I wasn't good enough for anyone else.. and he condescended me to the point where I felt worthless by my own lover. And he would guilt me into sexual acts I didn't agree to saying "oh cmon we haven't in forever and I'm getting bored!" Ladies, please don't ever let ourself be told that you won't be good enough for anyone else because you are. And you will find someone and this pain won't last forever. Sure it's your first love and it was really big, but you're bigger and you're stronger. For everyone going through the same thing, you're not alone and I know you'll get through this💓