I have anxiety depression and anorexia and this period of my life feels like the worst ,people at my school say oh yeah I have anxiety and I get them to explain what they feel like to me to see if I sb relate and stuff but they will say like last night I listened to say something . Like they are listening to social media and copying it and even though half of thoes things aren't what it is . I used to cut my self until someone found out and I had to keep talking to people and I don't like talking for long because other wise I start to stutter and eventually can't talk anymore

Recently I've become really close to my 3 best friends which is good because I can talk to them , I don't talk to them about what goes on in my head but I can talk to them about girly things I guess but I've become fed up with social media it has such a bad effect in people like how they have to look but people say ignore it and it's not realistic , but that's exactly my point I personally don't think I would be anorexic if it werentfor the media I just hate myself and the things I eat all the time and want to throw up and then end up not eating for days and getting ill easier i just want to live carefree but I realised you never can you will always have work or school if bills to pay I just want to live in the jungle because that's one of the things that makes me happy the peacefulness to it all it seems so easy .

Also hate the fact that we're controlled by the government like we have to say and do whatever they want because apparently they are all knowing and all powerful but not everyone thinks that . Money ruined us all and the world is so selfish all of it i hate I just want to live underwater forever . Ella 14 - yes I'm so young to be thinking all of this but that's what happened to teenagers who are "supposed" to have big boobs slim waist big bum and average thighs , sorry but I'm bit made in a machine !!!!