BFN at approx 8 dpo

Francesca • Mommy to two amazing little boys!!
I know it's too early. I know my AF isn't due for 7 more days, and I shouldn't have tested. I know that, even worse, I used the cheap 88 cent Walmart test and those aren't as sensitive. I know o should have waited....but I can't help but feel so sad. Even though I know there is a chance i could test again and get my BFP, I still can't help but feel like we missed it again this month.....for the 8th time in a row. I also know that I am beyond blessed to have one amazing son already....but I can't help but feel sad that I haven't made him a sibling yet. I don't know why I do this to myself.