Feeling so heartbroken

Heavy bleeding and passed two large clots yesterday. The ER trip did nothing for my concern. Vaginal ultrasound showed a baby still there and hcg was where it needed to be. But the day had only just begun. From that point it was a long night. I immediately felt so empty. My family says to not lose hope and that it’s not over till it’s over, but I can’t shake this feeling. My first pregnancy, my first shot at giving my husband a son, at making our parents grandparents for the first time, even making great grandparents. And I feel like it’s over. Like I let all of them down. The cramping and bleeding has, for the most part, stopped. But the heartache hasn’t. I feel no relief that the baby could be just fine. I can’t believe this happened to me. I’m trying to wait it out and get to my next blood work appointment, but I know. I already know. I just had to get this off my chest. Only time will tell at this point. Good luck to the rest of you ladies.