How do you keep trying? Disappointed again

So we have been ttc for 10 cycles now (my period fluctuates between 22-27 days) and af came again today. My hubby and I have never even been able to take a hpt because af arrives before we can even get our hopes up. Both of us have had blood work/ tests and are in the normal ranges. I am 30 and he is 29.

Everything should be fine right? Everyone around me is getting pregnant without trying...while drinking and partying. Here I am changing my diet, no booze, taking vitamins, exercising and doing everything I can to just hope that I can bring a human into this world. I know I am not alone...but this month it is hitting harder than ever.

Anyone have any advice for pushing through and staying positive? I feel like a dark cloud and keeping this secret just makes it all the harder. Needing some sisters this month