Shitty self confidence

So this upcoming weekend I'm going to my bfs cousins wedding. I bought a new dress for it and was super excited. I decided to try it on tonight to match it with some shoes and while I was showing my mom the dress my dad butts in and says

"You remind me of the Michelin tires mascot bc that dress shows off all your fat, especially your gut and back fat"

I couldn't believe he said that so I just ran to my room and cried. I cut up the dress and I really don't want to go to the wedding anymore.

Ever since the age of 12, when people first started pointing out my fat, I've always had a low self confidence. I avoid family gatherings bc it always gets brought up. I never go shopping bc I can't find anything that fits me the way that I want.

I was so happy to finally find a dress I felt good in but after tonight I hate it... and I don't want to go anymore. It hurts so bad that these comments came from my own dad & it wasn't even the first time he made them.

It absolutely sucks when you're own family brings u down instead of bringing u up.

Sorry for the long post but I just wanted to get it all out somewhere