So literally just this morning I posted my bfp on Glow. I had been testing all week and the line was getting darker each day. I was supposed to start AF on Tuesday but think I ov’d late and could have been due today.

Anyway I tested again this morning and got a bfp- two lines, very obvious just not as dark as each other. My two best friends knew I had been testing so I excitedly messaged them this morning to tell them.

I called my doctor and went in for some bloods and a general check up.

When I got home from the appointment I started cramping quite lightly and when I wiped had some light pink. Well now it’s a lot darker like proper blood but still a lot lighter than normal AF.

I’m guessing this is a chemical, and I know it’s vey early and I probably wouldn’t have known if I didn’t test early but I can’t help but feel completely heartbroken and need to hear some kind words or success stories of pregnancies after chemicals.

I just feel broken, empty and a complete failure 😭

UPDATE: just wanted to post an update in case anyone else goes google/search crazy like me and wants to know what happened in my case.

I stopped bleeding yesterday and took another test his morning, much darker than before. I went to the doctors and they have sent me for an urgent scan (won’t happen till next week!!) and they wouldn’t take blood until then either.

My hCg result from Friday was 16. I won’t know if it’s gone up until next week. I was worried this was low but she told me anywhere over 5 is good at this early stage (I’m only 17dpo).

Will update this post with the outcome when I have it.. thanks for your support ladies it’s really helped me feel better.