trusting and love

Vanessa • Wifey 💍 - Mom to Layla ❤️
I have been dating my boyfriend for almost a year and a half, I'm almost 21 and he's 26. I love him to death, words can describe how much I love him. he's the one I want to spend my life with and I'm the one he wants to spend his life with. my family all love him and they love us together. my boyfriend is someone I can trust 100% , he's loyal, trust worthy and wouldn't hide anything from me. we had issues with him sneaking on my social media and not telling me stuff in the beginning of the relationship but it's been over a year and we have grew to open up our communication and tell each other everything. I have one problem... my ex cheated on me and I was in love with him. I tell my self I don't have love for him anymore but I will always just because he was always there for me. he told me he cheated on me -well the girl did (it got ugly!) and I stayed with him a few weeks after but fell out if love because of what he did. he has made me not trust any man anymore. I love my boyfriend and want and can trust him I just have a hard time doing it and it hurts our relationship sometimes because of my insecurities too sometimes. for some reason I can't ever take my ex out of my head ! we talked a few months ago but I just,seen him as a friend but I still think of him and stuff we use to do and can't stop! even had a dream about him :( I love my boyfriend but having a hard time getting over my ex from years ago and need to learn to trust my boyfriend more and not thinking he is going to fuck me over like my ex because he is was better than him ! I need help ladies! sorry this is so long but I don't know how to get over him and my insecurities and to trust my boyfriend and only think about hi! :( help!