Parent divorce

Ok so I’m on my period and that could be why I’m hardcore crying about it but ever since I was little my dad has been mentally/emotionally/verbally abusive and on rare occasions he will get physical. My mom and I just got out of the house a couple months ago, but my mom doesn’t know if she wants a divorce. I’m 14 and I struggle with mental health issues and I don’t know what to do either... my boyfriend is really supportive and so are my friends and I’m seeing a counselor but I feel trapped. I don’t want to go back but if there is a divorce I will have to anyway.. help please?