Today would have been my due date with my first child. Today was supposed to be the scariest, most exciting day of my life. I keep thinking "I could have a baby right now..." I will never stop thinking about my first child. Everyday something reminds me of the baby that could have been. I thought today was going to be hard on me but instead, I woke up to tiny kicks in my belly and a kiss from my husband. I found my rainbow after the storm. I know things hurt but there is a reason behind everything. I grieve my first child and celebrate my new baby. I know I am blessed. I hope anyone hurting can find their rainbow, any type of rainbow so they can see how blessed they are too.