Had a chemical last month

I'm 11dpo and just got a BFP!

But I am beyond scared of another one. I had back pains with the last one and now I just started with back pains. Every time I got to the bathroom I'm petrified because I don't want to see blood! I'm overthinking everything can't bring myself to be excited yet. Husband said he won't believe it till blood work confirms a high HCG. Can't say I'm not thinking the same but regardless at this very moment I'm pregnant!

I just want my sticky bean! Praying so hard this one sticks!