I don’t really have anyone to talk to about this so I guess I’ll put it on here. My gynecologist found a vulvar growth that she believes to be cancerous. I had it removed yesterday and I’ve got a couple of stitches down there that hurt like hell.

My boyfriend and I recently moved in together and life is so difficult now that we’re on our own. I moved in with him the day after my 18th birthday because my family kicked me out and vowed to never allow me back into their lives.

Lately he’s been really distant from me and I don’t know if it’s the stress of being on our own or my tumor or if I am just more than what he bargained for. He yelled at me today and it was the first time I’ve ever seen him truly angry and it was directed at me. We’ve been together for almost 4 years now and I had thought I’d seen it all from him. “You’ve been so bitchy lately!!” he screamed at me.

Maybe it’s all my fault. I don’t know. All I know is that my life seems to be crumbling down around me and I’m helpless to stop it.