Are my boobs too big? Help.

Hi girls, I have been struggling since grade 4 with how big my chest was. People have always looked and judged me. I’m in high school and things have only gotten worse. I’m now a 32F and cry almost every night about it. There’s no bra that ever fits me and constantly get turned away by big brands like Victorias Secret becuase there is no size for me. It’s gotten to the point that I don’t even want to get out of bed anymore. Girls are supposed to want big boobs but when you have to deal with them every single day it is a challenge. My shoulders, back, and neck always hurt and I’m starting to get out of shape because I can’t even run on a treadmill. I know this is supposed to be a positivity page but I’m hoping there’s someone else out there like me. I’m always so jealous of girls that are smaller..