I broke down last night..

It’s been six months since I found out I was pregnant and four months since the miscarriage. For some reason I was sure I’d be pregnant by now! This month was a complete tease, to top it all off. Right when I was sure the lines were getting darker they stopped.

I started crying last night, and then I completely lost it. I literally broke down, at one point I remember just wailing and screaming into my pillow “I want my baby!” When I say I lost it, I mean I ugly cried for hours.

I never thought I’d say this, but I’m starting to lose hope.. 💔😭