After two year of trying to conceive it finally happened. For four bliss filled days I got to be thrilled at the prospect of having another child. I got to bask in the joy of telling my husband and the enjoy the delightful bragging of my daughter who would finally be a big sister. However it all came crashing down when I woke up Monday morning bleeding. There wasn’t a lot of blood and no cramping so I tried to stay positive. Unfortunately after some tests it was confirmed today that I had miscarried. I feel as if my heart has been ripped from my chest.

I now have to tell my daughter that there is no baby. I cant seem to stop crying. Was it something I did? Was it all the stress from my job? It hurts so much. I feel like a total failure.